Obedience

Do you ever get a feeling in your gut that you know you need to do something but you’re just not ready??  Or you think – really God?  REALLY.. is that what you want from me?

I’ve had a year filled with wrestling to be obedient.  I always desire to be obedient and follow God – but it’s so hard when I’m not REALLY sure what He wants from me.  I feel a nudge yet I’m just not sure which direction He wants me to go!

Obedience gives me the hugest sense of peace when I actually follow through.  It may not always be popular, it may not be comfortable, and it may not even be pleasant – but God’s ways are so much higher than mine and I’m so thankful He’s the one to Whom my life is entrusted.

For almost 3 years now, I’ve had 1 1/2 jobs in ministry.  I love God, I love people, and I love singing.  My jobs at ATLAS and New Life Church had a mixture of all of that and I loved every minute of it.  Yet there recently came a time where I was overwhelmed and forgetting to just take time for ME.  To be a better wife, a better friend, spend more time with God, and simply enjoy life rather than always running to the next thing.

At the end of this month, I will be done with my music position at New Life.  Some of it is bittersweet and hard to walk away from, but I am confident this is where God wants me and I have finally reached a point of being at peace with it.  I know my involvement in music will not diminish as it’s such a huge part of my life – I just won’t be the one preparing for every service, praise team, etc.

I’m anxious to see what the next step of my journey is, as well as David and my journey together.  We’ve had some tough situations and changes to walk through the last couple of years, but our trust remains in a God who is always faithful and has never let us down!  Thanks to all of you who also said many prayers as I wrestled with my job decision.  You are a blessing!