Oh Baby

This week we have had some fun, new experiences with Baby E.  Now reaching the halfway mark, I feel like the excitement and anticipation is growing.  After being in the “waiting room” for so long before that and not knowing God’s plan for us with parenthood, it’s been a tough adjustment to allow myself to get overly excited and emotionally attached to this baby.  And some of that I’ve honestly been fighting and not allowing myself in fear of disappointment.  It’s a feeling you truly don’t get until you’ve walked in similar shoes. 

God made it VERY clear over the last 3 years that my plan is not his and I have to completely trust in Him because I can’t do anything to change it anyway.  I have NO control over such things.  So even with this little life growing inside of me, I’ve had to completely rely on God as much as I wanted to be reassured everything would end up OK.  All we could/can do is pray.  God is continually forming and shaping this little one and we have to completely leave it up to him.  As we entered the hospital for my mid-term ultrasound yesterday, I obviously had some anxious thoughts and feelings running through my heart and mind.  I haven’t seen the little thing since it was only 8 weeks old and at that point it just looked like a little bean. :)

We sat down to wait for them to call us, and written in big white letters on the wall was “Worry ends… where faith in God begins.”  I’ve sat in that room many times before and probably read it every time.  It was just so fitting and touched my heart once again.  One MORE reminder that God is completely in control and I felt peace that He was going to be with us through the process.

As we had our eyes peeled to the screen on the wall, we started to see little body parts moving and squirming and we were reminded how there is no other way to describe the forming of a little life but a miracle.  God is so good! 

We learned the gender and plan to share that with you soon.  Probably the next post so stay tuned… :)  We are just so thankful for a healthy little one so far and trusting God for the remainder of the pregnancy.

We also got a new fun book to read – it’s called “Oh Baby, the Places You’ll Go.”  It’s a book to be read in utero so David and I had some laughs this week trying to read all the Dr. Seuss – style rhyming words.  Good thing the baby doesn’t fully understand yet anyway because we were confused sometimes ourselves :)